Hello again. Now I would like to provide an interpretation of myself, and how I operate as a 3D and beyond human. I’m very much interested in astrology, astronomy, physics, quantum physics, crystals, animals, so anything invovling the natural world and the unseen world. I live on the bridge of being at peace with science and source. I'm spiritual, not religious...it is not the same thing. Being spiritual is finding truth within ourselves, our inner sanctuary is the church, and prayer is remembering our origin didn’t start at birth.
I do however tend to romanticize a collective culture of god and goddess art, symbolism, and literature. I just think of them as different archetypes and egregores to serve and explain our human beingness. They are only as good or bad as the feelings we hold and labels we give them. We are the gods, goddesses, aliens, starseeds, angels, devils, demons and more. It’s all in us, because we are the creators creating it, we just keep making stuff up to either enslave us or empower us. It is we that decide at any given moment what parts of ourselves we pull down from the ethers and embody, and which we forget for a while. You have to meet the dark parts of yourself eventually, confront and caress shadows. Only then will you ever understand someone else’s dark parts, or free yourself from the grip of your own. It is the fear we have of those things that keep us from becoming our full potential. Or at least that’s how I see it. Let’s discuss in the comments below.
I would say I have a lifestyle leaning a little witchy and a lot whimsy, and still practical. I have a good grip on reality and my mental stability but I live in other dimensions as much as possible while surviving in this one. I feed my 3D being enough to learn as much as my soul wants before the end. As far back as high school I carried magic and mythological books at all times. I live my life in the flow of rituals of the seasons, as much as the modern day allows. I don't follow any set of rules when it comes to my spiritual path I pull from many sources. It is free to evolve as I learn and grow as a person.
I do a lot of photo art using myself as a subject. I experiment on myself as a means to learn a new art techniques, skill, software, whatever it may be. Although it may look like self obsession to the outside world. I let people come to their own conclusions, at the core it doesn’t take anything away from me. What others think is none of my business. I have to be the main character of my own life and you can’t do that if you are constantly in fear of offending someone by just being who you are, you don’t have to apologize for standing in your truth and sharing you own light. It’s why we are here.
As I said I live in-between worlds of consciousness, I wouldn’t want it any other way. I sometimes describe it as a sort of acid trip existence, looking at life through a kaleidoscopic lense of pigment and fractures. Fun fact I had a small jewelry shop briefly on Etsy called Kaleidoscope Reserve 2013-14. It ended up being more work on promoting and website upkeep than actually making art. So the fun was short lived. It was easier to be overlooked then, visiblity is becoming more attainable, when you are ready to be seen. I myself am a jewelry and crystal collector and use them as bridges in my consciousness ladder in meditation and in turn use them as inspo occasionally in my art. I take all that I experience in multiple levels of consciousness and merge that with some kind of tangible medium to bring it to life. That is kind of hard to explain, and I'm sure it sounds all kinds of crazy. I'm not even sure if that is the correct way to describe me, but I know no other way to express it. I pull inspo from my dreams, daydreams, ideas that come to me in meditation, my interactions with others, and so on. I also see myself as a visionary and intuitive channel, I enjoy collective Oracle readings and reading for my own life. I’m a jack of all trades type of artist. I love writing, painting, photography, nail art, makeup, jewelry making, cosplay, scrapbooking, wind-chimes, sun catchers, the list goes on. I do not do commissions, I cannot find the focus to work on someone elses vision, it’s hard enough to focus on my own, and if forced will never complete it. I know myself well enough to just politely decline.
The photo inspiration I used to create the graphic in blue. The words “Stuck in her daydream I wrote on a piece of paper and took a photo of it then uploaded it, stretched it out, then layered it into the end piece. For those of you that like dissecting creative process, I’ll show my work.
An excerpt from my old blog, titled “Stuck in her daydream”, written on March 8th, 2023
“Growing up in a small nowhere Ohio town, I had a fantastical vision where I would shed everything I had back home, and become a creepy cool artist living alone in a loft in New York City with a cat...only coming out at night. Never sleeping, addicted to caffeine, clove cigarettes, and lonileness. I never even questioned it, I suppose it was a form of escapism from how mundane life in a small town actually is. I also thought I'd die young, (specifically 22) no real reason, just a hunch, or maybe a Nostrodamus prediction on the world? So, I didn’t put too much effort in my future at the time, I mean...why would I? I had so little time left. None of that actually happened. It isn't even that wanted to go to NYC, but that I had this image of what an artist had to do to 'make it'. Let me repeat I never lived or went to New York, it was a daydream. My real life was so drastically different from that, it’s hilarious to think about. Making it in the world varies on individual perspective. What does it mean to me to have made it? Am I not making it now?“
