Pondering Deeper thoughts: A Saturn Day Series:entry 3

My bunnies of prosperity 😆. Free gifts I would send in orders at my shop.
They all went to good homes. People LOVED them!

The illusion of Opportunity scarcity.

It’s now or never isn’t really a thing, neither is opportunity only knocks once, it is an ultimatum placed on someone in a fear based state tricking them into thinking it’s the only option they got. Your calling will keep calling and the door will open as many times as it is meant to. So step back from anyone telling you to make a hasty decision or else, they don’t have your best interests in mind.  

If the opportunity really only knocked once that opportunity isn’t the one you are meant to have anyway, it was never yours to start with. A similar opportunity will come around to take its place because it suited your circumstances now. At the same time just because that one opportunity didn’t turn out doesn’t mean somewhere else down the road it won’t be offered again. If it’s meant to it will one day, the sooner you can remind yourself of it and let it go back into the universe the better. Don’t ever let anyone bully you into a decision by putting you into fear or because they are in fear. Your true calling will knock over and over, and your calling is up to you not another. You will never be passed by the opportunity that is meant for you, even if you said no once. So always sleep on it, think about it, if it still scares you the next day or make you feel anxious and nauseous don’t do it. If someone is mad because you are taking too long that says everything you need to know. 

Scarcity is also an illusion even when the world outside makes you believe we are running out of food, out of water, out of whatever else you can come up with. The world is full of abundance and resources. It doesn’t mean we shouldn’t be mindful of the earth. Don’t take more than you need, don’t litter, don’t harm wildlife.  Go do what you want to do, and less of what you don’t. Sure it goes both ways, there is an abundance of awful out there too. However, if you keep in the mindset of you’ll always be okay and you’ll always have everything you need in this life. Guess what you’ll get?  The good stuff.

I just want to say this post isn’t about me. I’m good because this is how I already think. I’m a ‘no’ pro 😆, I haven’t been a people pleaser since my last retail job which was ages ago. It is just a deep thought I wanted to share with anyone feeling like they are lacking something or made the wrong decision in something by saying yes. I know some people who can’t say no to anything, then cry about it everyday until whatever they agreed to is over. Try not to sign contracts in eclipse season (now until Aug 31st), like new cars and leases those can backfire. 

For all else, just say no when you mean no. Otherwise there’s no soul in what you’re doing because mentally you will be anywhere but there. There is no point in that!  Anyone who is for you will never make you feel bad about it. With that said there are no wrong decisions, those are like taking a bunch of side quests you didn’t intend to go on. You can always get back on the main road and get back to what you really want to do, but it would probably have saved you some time if you just said no to begin with. 

Hope this was an empowering ponder for this Saturn day.

That Friday Feeling: entry 5

Orders out! Check out my Mercari shop (link is on home page and IG bio).

It’s the end of week already! It’s been 6 weeks since I started this blog. Amazing. I’m going to reward myself with a crystal order. There is a restock tonight at my go to crystal shop, so I’ll be checking it out. I already know what I want that is already listed for sale, but I figure I’ll wait to see if I want to add to it. Very excited. I have to add to my treasure hoarding mythical creatures and prosperous critters so I can keep my good fortune up. 

Are you also a crystal enthusiast and do you have a favorite? I’m am picking up a few new to me crystals I’ve been meaning to get but haven’t yet, like Apatite. New energy to work with. I feel drawn to get a few more blue, green, and yellow pieces. I’ll do an unboxing on IG when it comes. 

I packed up my candle and dried flowers today. That was sad but it’s about that time for the fall altar and things. I’ll probably put my porcelain Ram away, I meant to before summer but forgot, more of a winter/spring piece. 

Now for wingstop, they have jerk chicken 🤤

So what are you rewarding yourself with today? 

For flashback Friday 🤪…way back

Reflect Thursdays: Entry 5

 

The first album I ever bought outside of the US 

Music of the past 

Ultra Mayhem from Finland  (not to be confused with ‘Mayhem’ from Norway)

Hi! I’m throwing it back to music since I’ve been listening to this album a lot this week I thought I’d mention it. It was such a long time ago when I discovered this band on MySpace. Pretty sure it was 2006 because I remember where I was living when I got it.  I bought this from the band directly in Finland. That was all new to me and the conversion of dollars to rubles. I got the hand written post on the front of the mail and it went through many different services to finally reach me. I was really unsure if I would actually ever get it because it seemed so faraway. lol. I did though, without any issues at all, and I’ve done international purchases many of times since. I’m uncertain why this band split I didn’t keep up with them after I left MySpace. Perhaps they are in other bands or have a new band now. I tried to find info on it, I guess the album was remastered in 2017 but that’s all I know. They are on bandcamp but only have one cd left, also have an IG page but I forgot to see when it started. I don’t think there was anything there. 

If you love Finnish metal do check this album out on iTunes (This was a copy before they named it Jeremiad) but it is the same, because it’s really good. Back to Origin is my favorite song on album. If you really love it you can go to bandcamp and buy their only remaining cd and find out what happened to them. 😂. Since I already have it.

Another band that seemed to just disappear that I loved! is 

Unavox (not to be confused with Ultravox)

Another band from my nostalgic days of MySpace 2006…but from the US so easier to purchase music from. I bought their Angels Dance Upwards album and it’s one of my favorite albums of all time. I would describe it as EDM forward sound with goth industrial flare. It is a really solid album, no song skipping necessary. They are not a band anymore, I don’t know their human names I tried searching around and never find anything. They just vanished I guess. So you may never get a physical copy of the album unless they magically reappear on the current timeline 😂. 

 🧛🏻🧛🏻‍♀️

Nevertheless, the music is on iTunes and I highly recommend giving it at least one listen. It looks like they put out a single, War of Attrition in 2021. Maybe thought about coming back, or a revision, I’ll have to listen to it. They could rise anytime now, still relevant. 

The cd, and they gave me a bumper sticker w/ thanks on the back

Those are my two throwbacks this week. Check them out on iTunes where they still exist.

Artless Wednesday 😅 sorry!

A younger me (36), I took the color out of this picture and then went in and made it a blacklight neon

Today is the last day of my lions gate candle burning. The flame has been nonstop dancing, for hours. I don’t have the air on right now,  so it’s not from a breeze. So, my spirit, guides, team and ancestors are busting ass for me while I’m awake. I’m so grateful, thanks so much. 

Hello. I’ve been relaxing for the most part because it’s the eclipse day. Not just any old eclipse for me, it’s the beginnings of a life transformation, not because I said I wanted it to be but because it’s in the stars. This is a big one the eclipse is happening in Leo on the 20 degree mark, and my moon is sitting at 17 degrees so it is considered a direct hit. My rising is now at 13 degrees, and my personal new year (draconic birthday day) and moving into the third deacon of Leo. My north node is 28 degrees. I follow my progressed natal chart these days it’s more accurate. So the more placements you have near 20 degrees in Leo or another fixed sign will feel it more. Today does feel different now that it has passed…nothing that negative for me but I know to take it easy. It’s time to lean more Regulus 🐈 and less Sirius 🐕.  I was extremely hungry out of nowhere, then I ate and now I’m extremely full. I figure I must have needed it. Next year it happens again which is what I’ll call part two, lol. 

I know I’m slacking in the art post two weeks in a row 🫣. I still showed up to write, does it count?  I did paint my nails. 

ILNP Eclipse 

Here is a digital art I created. It represents the Angel anaretic degree of Aquarius being destroyed to become the fish. I’ve entered my third Sun sign progression.

 I was just learning how do things digitally and with limited with tools and lots of frustration .
 But I thought the idea was pretty good.  It’s something I would probably recreate someday. Only good next time 😆.

This weeks cosmic peek 🫣: entry 5

Gif I created for my short story in 2023, that is actually the Organ mountain range in NM I lived near.
I added the lion though 😆😉

Hello! I do hope you all liked the video yesterday, it was long, but covered so much ground. It did get a lot of hits so I’ll take it as satisfactory. 

Not a lot going on this week but what is going on is on the massive scale.

The planetary parade the morning of the 12th

Tomorrow Mercury, Mars, Jupiter, Saturn, Neptune, and Uranus align in the sky before the sunrise on the same day of the total solar eclipse. 

New Moon in Leo

Just be. Be your inner child, in your true colors. Let that authenticity of who you really are out and let the rest fall away. Make confident decisions in your work and rest when you can because this is a day of heart sensitivity along with other Leo ruled areas such as the spine and circulatory system. If you exert yourself too heavily it could lead to a day in the hospital, just be smart in the heat and prepared accordingly with enough food and water and shelter.

The solar eclipse at 12:08 pm EDT

Because it starts really high in the northern hemisphere over Russia only those in high places like Northern Europe and Greenland will get the ‘total’ eclipse look as it moves across it orbital line and it will look partial to the rest of us, and some of us (like me in central USA) won’t see anything at all. But I know it’s there. 

This new moon creates a pitch black night where the Perseid meteor shower will then come in until the 13th, this is a big meteor shower and will be very visible for those of you that want to stargaze. 

Mercury Jupiter conjunction on the 15th (Saturday)

Mercury has now joined Jupiter in Leo.  This is a favorable position where Jupiter expands the attractive attributes of Mercury’s mind enhancing intellect, speech, teaching, writing, authority roles, etc. The challenge is to not be ‘too much’. Too repetitive, over explain yourself, overthinking, and being overconfident.

I am still burning my candle through tomorrow. Whatever is left of it after that I’ll just save until next year same time. Will it be the same place? Hmm I don’t know…methinks no

I’m going to do my eclipse manicure either later today or early tomorrow. I’ll post it on IG. I already know what song I’m using for it. I bet you can guess it, but remember it’s a Solar eclipse and there is a lunar eclipse on the 28th and that’s a different song and manicure 😂. Both songs are well known. So that is what I have for you today. Enjoy your day and tomorrow’s cosmic events but with care! Hopefully we don’t lose gravity like some people have mentioned. If so I’ll see you in The Raptor. 

Here I am. Just being. As you can see I don’t really know what to do with my face. 😂😐

Sacred geometry movie

Sacred Geometry Movie

 Good afternoon. I hope your Monday is going well so far. I am having an easy breezy day integrating these energies we’ve been inflicted with. It’s a welcome change, I actually  like this part, I feel icy cold on the inside and I like to write and wrap myself in a blanket and heating pad. Weirdo huh.  Well, I’m excited because I know I have another brownie to eat later. The little things in life make the difference sometimes. If you read yesterday’s post I said I’d say what I had for dinner today. It was a junk food day all in all. I had pizza 👇🏻.

The brownie 

Yellow peppers and black olives and extra cheese (my go-to)



Hopefully the little documentary is interesting enough for today’s movie. It is a topic I am drawn to in a way that never felt like something I’m learning the first time but remembering from the past. I have a favorite oracle deck pertaining to the subject it’s very easy to unlock messages with it for me.  

I’m going to go for now. I added a bit to my Pinterest public boards  yesterday but my greenhouse board is private. For now. I might add movies to my profile page here today. See ya later. 😉

Sunday is for selfcare: Entry 5

Good morning! Well, it is still morning when I started writing, but there is only 15 minutes left. 

This morning my self-care is actually body care. I am trying a new spray for problem skin called Magic Molecule. I normally use Skinsmart and they look identical for the most part as far as ingredients go. Magic molecule is $2 more expensive but easy to find in town where the other I can only get on Amazon. I don’t go through it too fast, 8oz about every six months. I figure I’d just get Magic Molecule so I don’t have to wait for shipping. These types of sprays are great for flare ups of any kind. It doesn’t dry the skin out more and it stops any itching. I recommend it for everyone’s health cabinet, a holy grail item.

I am taking NMN currently and I’m almost done with my bottle. I’m not getting another. It was just for a boost, to wake up my bodies own NAC production. There isn’t enough research for me to be comfortable taking it long term, we will have to see how it feels not to be on it. I’m all for doing detoxes and boosting the system but we should definitely take breaks from it for the organs to rest.  I’m also doing a liver detox right now, my body is running a marathon and healing at the same time and is super confused about whether it’s coming or going 😆.

There are a couple other supplements on the horizon to add to my life. I found a nattokinase combo supplement with two other enzymes that help get rid of fibrin from the body. Fibrin is a protein that when in overgrowth strangles veins in the lower body. When that happens you blood clots up and it cannot get back to the heart like it should. But this three enzyme combo reverses the damage and breaks clots and cleans blood. It takes only a few weeks to eliminate it. I’m already taking natto by itself so when I run out I’ll try this other supplement instead. The brand is Novara Labs. The other thing I want to try is add some probiotics specifically for women. I go through a lot hormonal fluctuations which make inflammation and swelling I already go through about 8 lbs worse give or take monthly. So I’m going to start one from micro ingredients next week with 100 billion cfu. They are supposed to live through digestion, I hope so. The magnesium oil I’ve been taking is the best investment I’ve ever made for my health. The brand 7 minerals also has it in a lotion so I think using both together would be even better. So I’ll be starting that next week too. 

So all that aside I am going to make some gluten free double fudge brownies today. They are Krusteaz brand. The texture of the gf version is better than the regular I actually prefer it. Not sure yet what else I’m eating so I’ll have to mention it tomorrow whatever I come up with. 

For my creative side today I’m going to make a new Pinterest board. I have been envisioning a small greenhouse, so I want to make a board with what I’d put in my greenhouse if I had one. Last night as I fell asleep I added stuff in my head, in lieu of counting sheep 😂. So, I’m off to do that while I think of what to eat and listen to the music I bought Friday. Have a great one and I’ll be back manaña.

 

A quick note Saturn day

 

Let your inner child shine 😆

How cool is this carnelian potion bottle necklace! 🔥  I have some essential oils is in it

Leo rising (when my mane was blonde) not Ai just a creative photo edit from a Panasonic LUMIX 16mp camera in the beautiful Las Cruces New Mexican sunshine. 


Hello! It’s not going to be a regular deep thought Saturn day post, I just didn’t want to not show up at all here. I’m celebrating 888 in a 3D way. Don’t worry I will be full of thoughts still 😆. I might slip off social media for the remainder of the day to be more present, but I’ll be back tomorrow. I only slept from 4am to 10:30am (just one of those wide awake nights) but I feel pretty good so far despite the geomagnetic storm that hit today.

I hope everyone has a great day. Stay in good spirits and be grateful. Then you’ll fly through this portal no problemo.

See you tomorrow for my regular self care tips.

That Friday Feeling: entry 4

Friday 🎉

I know Friday is half way over but, I’m here! 😆🎉

I am here on this blog because I enjoy it, and that is reason enough for me.  Perhaps I inspire others in someway, but I’ll probably never know. I’ve only missed one day since I started blogging which I find amazing. I’m consistent with my commitment I made and that feels good. So whatever you may find yourself doing on any given day I hope for you to find some good in it, some personal joy, some reminder of belonging to something greater than it may seem.

I’m going talk a minute about music. To inspire others to purchase some as well. It is bandcamp Friday afterall and it’s been awhile since they have done it. Bandcamp Friday waives their fee so any money given goes to the artist 100%. It’s such a great place for that reason. I have left Spotify, at the beginning of the year, as it seems like it is not the place to support on these days, they really don’t care much and I’ve got strange vibes from them via email as well. My intention was only ever to help other people be seen.  So I have returned back to iTunes where I pay for the streaming, but I also like to pay for a stream on bandcamp as well as occasional physical cd or vinyl copies of music. You never really know how long these places will exist and your best bet is to get a copy to listen to if you really like something, just incase the grid goes down or whatever. I do enjoy buying a song here and there from many people instead of a whole album if I only have like five bucks to spend, so I like that I can do that somewhere and people actually get paid something. I have recently purchased some older music not being made anymore from other people. So I’m slightly behind on picking up brand physical copies of newer music I like. I have to  catch up 😮‍💨😅.

Music I’ve purchased in 2026 in cd or vinyl 

Entwine (I’ve been collecting the whole discography) Painstained, Dancing under glass, Dieversity, Fatal Design, the treasure from within, a time of despair. Still need Gone

Evil Mothers- Spider sex and car wrecks CD

Theatre of Tradgedy- Aegís CD

Azam Ali- Elysium for the Brave CD

Shiny toy guns- III CD

Charon- Downhearted and Tearstained Vinyls

Physical books are also a great idea for the same reason, and they are getting the chop if you’ve not heard. It is like a new age of book burning only they are being uploaded and shredded. So bizarre. Ai is supposed to inspire, a tool, a hint, enhance even as a piece of the work but not the entirety. Not take over, replace or eliminate art and information.  I don’t want to go down that road, it’s a slippery slope topic right now and it’s on fire because the slope is lava and it’s on a volcano.  The Ai it is not going anywhere it comes with the age, but it won’t replace a human long as the human doesn’t give up. 

For an example my gif above. This one it isn’t actually Ai, I used a real picture and used a premade template background and through on a CGI animation. CGI is a program created by an actual artist they allowed you to use.  I never typed in anything to have a computer create something,  but did use an app that also supports Ai. So it is complicated. I’m not trying to profit from it though. It is for my own personal use. Also I do know how to digitally illustrate also and make handmade art too. 

I don’t know what are your thoughts on royalty free cgi, templates, overlays and IMovie sounds. Is it not art enough? Should I feel like shit because I created it? I really don’t know sometimes. Stuff like that is just for fun for me.

Well I’m going to spend a couple dollars on bandcamp now, I’m really stuck in that mid 2000-early 2010s era of music at the moment on iTunes and what I listened to then. 

*not affiliated with bandcamp or any other music platform

Reflect Thursdays

 

Truly 

With the eclipse season nearing I guess this is weighing on my mind. We are allowed to change as many times as we need to. We can also be more than one way, in many different aspects of life. 

That thought brings me to the controversial topic of Lions Gate particularly on 8/8. People say, “You know that’s not actually a thing right?” “Nobody knows when or where it originated so it just New Age bs.” I hear it EVERY year. No, I’m not butt hurt because I’m a Leo rising and wish for it to be a thing. That’s all fine and good, we really are here to just find our own ways toward joy. I’m not trying to sway anybody’s spiritual beliefs.  I celebrate it because it feels GOOD to do so in the potent solar energy, and it is a sort of intuitive truth to me.  I don’t just follow one type of astrology either.  I merge them, add in numerology and whatever else I feel like and I create my own way.  It might be wrong to one person, but it feels right to me. I’m not sitting on the sidelines looking for approval first before I light my own candle. It’s as deep or meaningless as you want to make it, like anything else in life. There isn’t an astrologer out there that is going to deny the energetic potency of the July-August days any given year. It doesn’t really matter what we name them. Sirius our spiritual sun has still risen regardless of if it lines up perfectly or not. We are calling upon ourselves to feel energy not only of the outer stars but our inner one, remember that.  

What I will say is there is no need to try and manifest, the energy is super charged in an abundant time of year. We are only asked to be in gratitude. You get a lot of payback from whatever you’ve already put out so make sure it’s something you can handle and make room for it. With the node change to south node in Leo, a solar eclipse and a new moon is not for asking can I get some more because it is already on the way. It mostly a heart expansion, lead from there, watch the negative feelings. 

❤️‍🔥

I already wrote this once and it was deleted. So I started all over. I think that’s covers what I wanted to say about, kind of a throwback with the photo word picture. The grapes go through many transformations in life as well,  some stay soft and juicy on the vine and some are aged into wine, it’s still a 🍇 

Meditation is an art, right?

I was up very late last night, inflammation is compounding this week, so I’m having a flare up. Looks like a self care day.  I haven’t much to say, nor do I feel creative. So it’s just going to be one of those quiet days for me where I spend time meditating to relax my skin and muscles. I guess that is an art in itself, right? My legs are lead since yesterday and my fascia is strangling my ankles so I’m listening to my fascia release list on YouTube. Feel free to follow a playlist if you like I’ll post a link below. It is finally calming the f*** down.  I woke up to my left leg draining out lymph fluid, yes I have issues. My sock on my right leg somehow does a twist throughout every day, to the point the heel moves to the top of my foot, I feel like I constantly have to fix it, I have to wear the socks but it is annoying. I don’t really understand it because these are tight socks, and I’m not moving that much, how do they do that? I also noticed my armpits smell bad, they haven’t for along time, I even shaved them yesterday so I don’t get it except for I must be purging a lot. I drank two coffees, a cup of bone broth I rarely drink, it’s just another type of hot liquid to have. Now I’m drinking Ryl green citrus tea my favorite elusive cold drink. I’m going to have an unwhich from Jimmy Johns in about an hour, I don’t feel like having anything else just vegetables maybe some cottage cheese and drinks. Clear up whatever is congesting me. 

I know that this link is ugly but I can’t get it to show up another way. It will send you to my playlist though, I checked it myself. If you would like to send me healing vibes I much appreciate it. ✌🏻 

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLyCUAaXuVvt86O7jc_Z1Y4qmBhb92JS7P&si=yj5enC9W2hRv8A-t

This weeks cosmic peek 🫣: entry 4

It’s hot!! 🥵 

Good afternoon. I am a little tired and wired today, frizzle frazzled 😆. The energy of the last two weeks is catching up with me is what I’m trying to say. I’m trying to keep my nerve endings lubed with electrolytes and healthy oils but I still feel like a live wire. I keep waking in the morning with tight fascia in my extremities. Spending time listening to soundscapes to relax, decompress, detox, and dissolve. I’ve had a few emergency naps the past few days where I pass out listening to a heavy rain in the middle of the day. It’s only 30 minutes long but the amount of healing it gives is enough to continue the day. I’ll post it here 👇🏻, if you’d like to try it. It is really great! It’s like a cortisol elimination sound.

Alright let’s get into the cosmic peek of the week. What is happening besides lions gate open portal.

Mars moved into Gemini Sunday

Mars in Gemini will speed up our minds, we could feel like we are having good ideas. Good networking should come with this especially since Venus is in Libra now. However it could also make us feel restless and agitated. 

Chiron went into retrograde Monday

Chiron joins, Neptune, Saturn, and Pluto in the backwards dance…for the remainder of 2026.

Chiron is still in Taurus but he will traverse back into Aries (in September) for a spell before turning back around to Taurus next year in April. Chiron is the wounded warrior put of us, he actually plays a large rule in who we are for not being a planet. I was born with Chiron in retrograde also in Taurus. This will effect us all but more so the fixed signs while in Taurus, then the cardinals once back in Aries. You are going to have moments of feeling not enough, there are no quick fixes for this, retrograde means to go within to heal. Turn your pain into something beautiful. 

Venus moves home to Libra

Venus heads to Libra on the 6th, where she will be until mid September before entering Scorpio and turning retrograde late October. There may be a feeling relief and peace by Libra bringing balance to your life this first week. Following up with a Jupiter sextile on the 17th. Jupiter sextile will bring expansion in abundance. That feeling could be challenged the next week when Saturn conjunction happens. We will talk more about that next week. Cardinal signs will feel it the most. 

The Schumann Resonance is down today since early AM. I usually take that as the energy has gone high off the charts along with a collective timeline collapse. If you are interested in that kind of energy talk follow me on threads. I just don’t want to be repetitive on all my platforms. 

How is everyone feeling the week? Tell me if you want. Otherwise, check back tomorrow for my next post.       

Here is the yooperlite bunny lit up, I just remembered to post it here

Felines influence across time

Good morning, and happy Monday.  I love the Gaia channel, when I find a good episode for free that’s not too long I’ll present it here. I think this video is very appropriate this week, as we are in the lions gate portal now.  This video will give you insight on Lyra, Sirius, ancient sphinx carvings. Are you drawn to the felines? Do they feel otherworldly and familiar to you beyond this waking life? Do you consider yourself a Sirian or Lyran starseed?  I have conjunct alignments my sun and mercury to Lyra constellation and my NN conjunct Leo constellation so these are my most recent Star family allies.  Let’s talk about it in the comments. 

Sunday is for selfcare: entry 4

Good afternoon, I hope your Sunday is going well so far. I took the morning mostly offline while I did some things that needed done like a week ago. Like cut Chimālmā’s nails, omg I said mine grow fast but hers grow even faster. I could probably cut them weekly and this time I waited like a month. She had a bath yesterday and she smells like a vanilla cupcake. Laundry done in the early part of the day since it’s cooler. Listened to a few new cd’s I accumulated recently while I did those things to make sure they play all the way through. They did! I love listening to physical music.

Today I’m making tacos! I love crunchy tacos but I’m not trusting restaurants right now about the lettuce situation but they are always way better made at home. I have some Gotham brand lettuce which is supposed to be okay. When I hear Gotham my mind goes to Golgotha shit demon though. What was that from? Was it Dogma? We know he has cyclospora.

I did have a Crumbl cookie yesterday, it’s my something new for the weekend. The line up is bizarre this week, but I chose a limeade pop rock cookie. The pop rocks are kind of gummi I hope that are supposed to be. I ate half yesterday and I have half left for later today. It’s good though, but there is nothing lime about it, lol. So it’s probably going to kill me 😂.

The cookie, looks weird eh 🤔 

I hardly ever watch TV, it’s not a problem I have. I could actually throw my TV out and not care at all. However, I do want to watch the newer Frankenstein movie. So I might do that tonight. Just to disconnect from the internet a tiny bit. It seems people are collectively fasting from social media this week. So am I, for the most part.  I’ll post and skim through for a minute and do my ‘like’, ‘like’, ‘comment’, ‘like’ ‘repost’ but, I’m not going into doom scroll mode. I’ll save my doom for music only.  I’ll still post on threads every morning my daily good morning post. 

Took an hour to make and eat food. That’s all I got. Have a chill day! 

The tacos

Pondering deeper thoughts: A Saturn Day series: entry 2

 First I would like to say

 🌻Happy August, Lammas, and 🐇🐇🐇🌻

I apologize for not posting last Saturday. I had a case of ascension flu, it stabilized dramatically by the days end. Let’s have a most abundant amazing month. I have already noticed a shifting today in my own life. I’ve been very productive nonetheless I’ve been noticing things glitching in and out of reality. Like one second I see Chīmalmā standing in the hallway then she’s gone then I look to the couch and she’s there, next she walking around the kitchen. I’m not seeing the continuous flow from point A to B, it’s more like here, there and everywhere instead. I laugh because that’s some quantum physics strangeness. A piece of my reality skipped out on me for a split second, it only exists when I focus on it. She disappears into the astral, but she always comes back. 

Oh Chīmalmā is my little dog, if you don’t know already. Yes, named after the Aztec Goddess, that’s what she said her name was…and who am I to argue with a deity? I thank her for walking me through life. Seems like a good time for her introduction. 

Then : 🥲 what a sweety 

All grown up

Well, all of this so far has been quite a deeper thought, it may be enough to think about today. What has appeared and disappeared in your immediate vicinity? Not based on collective Mandela effects and Déjà vu moments, but your personal ones. Do you only believe something is real if someone else can verify it for you or do you deeply trust yourself? Do you dismiss your visions or embrace them? Do you realize you are in more places than sitting here reading this, what is running through your mind this second? Is it a passing thought or are you creating it? You are there too, how’s it feel? Do you accept higher dimensions? Have you reached a state where you can just feel the truth? Do you fear the unseen lost seconds between the 3rd and 5th dimensions? Do you accept more is revealed when it’s your time to see it? Will you decide to see it or do you prefer not knowing the deeper things?

A damaru? 

That Friday Feeling: entry 3

So long!

Friday marks Julys end

Good morning. It is the last Friday and day of July if you can believe it! One thing I noticed physically this month is my nails grew so much. I was curious about it, so I only did one manicure just be able to see the growth. That was on the 7th so not even a whole month has past. Thats crazy fast! I will probably do a new manicure this weekend. I have a polish I haven’t worn yet that I’ve had since January I’d like to wear. It’s called ‘Dead Reckoning’ from Prism Polish. I have a few brass rings that would look really cool with it and I never get to wear them. The only thing about having long nails I find frustrating is that it contributes to my spelling errors! I feel like I’m constantly rewriting stuff. 

Everyone should blog

Yesterday I changed the layout and look of the blog itself, I think it looks better. I hope you all think so too, and that it’s easy to navigate. I’m just learning more about Blogger as I go, and I’m totally okay with that. It’s slightly different than ‘Ghost.org’ where I had my last blog. I think it’s easier actually, and definitely cheaper. I think everyone should have a blog, if you want one you are certainly capable of keeping one. This is just one way to express yourself, it doesn’t take away from any other ways, it enhances it by filling in the gaps. You get me in a raw form over here vs social media. I almost created a blog immediately after Kitsune’s Corner, and was going to name it Michelle in the Raw. It just came to me one day, and to me it meant the me in a raw form from the soul. But I thought it would be taken wrong. I’m sure if you thought about it for a second you could see how. So actually, this blog was waiting for me to be ready to create it for a longtime, and I just spiraled back and reached that part of my personal timeline. I just had to give it a new name and start. I’ve never told anyone or wrote about this before so you 🫵🏻 reading this…you are the first to know! It’s not that big of deal but it is a part of me. The part I share with you. 

My personal links

I am going to try and put links up on the blog home page to my socials IG, threads, pinterest and my store on Mercari. I’ll explain them real quick. I bet my ‘real quick’ is long as hell 😆.

IG- I do visit everyday and post often but it’s not very engaging, I admit. Also before asking, no, I don’t get what I give.  I comment and like on an array posts everyday, and then hope that the algorithm doesn’t shadowban me for too much engagement. I get next nothing in return, acknowledgment of reading it like reacting with a heart, or follow back most of the time. It kind of makes you feel everyone has blocked you. It’s like the universe is watching to see how easily I give up. I keep giving on IG regardless because I’m either insane or resilient, maybe both 🤔.  So why do I stay? It isn’t purely for outside validation it is to see for myself that exist with the rest of the world with my outward eyes. There is something about Instagram I’m still fond of and don’t wish to leave. They did recently make a change I actually like, you can move posts around in the main grid. So I’ve been moving things to make it more aesthetically pleasing for ME to look at if nothing else. It will take a few days, I have a lot of posts but it’s coming along, it’s weird stuff like that I find fun. I also tend to move all video off my main grid after a few days but they are still visible under the play button ▶️ next to the grid. I long for the way it used to be more of a photo share social experience and less of a promotional app. I understand why it is used that way, but nobody engages with advertisements, why would you, it’s not warm, it doesn’t feel like a person. It’s lost a lot of charm. I only have a handful of real engaging friends, that I know in the real world, or at least know they are humans and not bots. I appreciate them, but it still feels bleak when everything else is just mass surveillance. 

Threads- is pure chaos. I feel like it’s in a good way though. I can feel the energy when it’s good and when it’s bad, it’s has its days, and while there are lots of bots there are also real people. Occasionally those people reach out to say something kind, inspiring, or share photo or memory of their own relatable story. Then you have the trolls which are probably also just bots. I do interact differently with threads than IG. I never use social media messaging unless I really trust you, and you’ll get like one word answers there, not true engagement. It would be much easier to email me to engage a conversation. That is in the home page. If you have my other email address, well, I guess you’re the real insider you may email me at either address anytime for any reason. I trust you!

Pinterest- I adore it so much, I’ve been there over a decade and I just can’t leave it. If you want to get into all my crevasses this is it. You’ll know all about me, the what I love, the way I think, my sense of humor, pretty much who I am. I’d say it is like the ultimate cliff notes to me. Like, go there read me, it’s a required friendship manual, and if you like what you find then you will know if you like me in real life or not. I know I’m not for everyone and would never want to be. 

Mercari- my online shop that I sell things on, it’s not at all about the money on there it’s more about giving someone else something I have I no longer need, or outgrown, or have too many, or I created something to share. Whatever it is, sometimes I have to downsize in one area so I can upsize in another.  It is a way for me to do that and get little something out of selling it, at least enough for me to come out even by paying shipping, on top of creating the empty space for something else I want or need. I like to think someone will get more joy from it than I did. I mostly sell fragrant jewels rings. I used to be a part of the inner circle and accumulated to many rings I didn’t want in the first place, I sometimes buy the ones I actually wanted from others there too, it’s fun.

That is probably more than I needed to say today. If this interests you and you are someone who doesn’t follow me yet and want to, I’ll try to get the links working before the day ends. Have a good weekend.

Reflect Thursdays: entry 3

My first ever liquid lipsticks from Limecrime black and red velvet (2015)

National Lipstick Day 👄 

This is a different kind of memory post for me. I went through a phase where I was obsessed with lipstick, as you can see I made weird photos like this one for no real reason. Really I was obsessed with makeup in general but with emphasis on lips and eyes. I have phased out of that for the most part and barely wear any day to day.  I do have some favorites though, and I’ll list them and talk about that and show pictures. I am not affiliated with any brands I mention. All opinions are my true feelings about the products I purchased with my own money. 

First I have tried lip venoms by Too Faced to get that fuller lip look, but those are short lived and irritating to lip in turn causes that plumping effect. Some of us like that feeling though, me included but it was more of a psychological thing associated with the product working. I found the plumping gloss by City Lips and there isn’t anything better than that. It swells lips fast and significantly for a long time, and it seems to build over time with consistent use. If you do skip a few days your lips will go back to normal though. Another perk is there is no irritation or flavor. Just leave on five minutes or longer before putting on lipstick. You can wear it alone as a gloss and it comes in different shades, it is very hydrating and silky not sticky at all. I’ve never had fillers injected. 

City Lips clear plumping gloss

Anastasia Beverly Hills Requiem Liquid Lipstick

Coven Cosmetics Void Liquid Lip

I did have most of this line KVD Everlasting Lipsticks 🥀

Fenty Gloss Bombs (The Best!) ♥️ 

KVD Lovecraft 💕
🥴 I was drunk, I wanted to see how it made my teeth look 

KVD Bow n Arrow 🏹 🫦 

Urban decay Native and First Sin exclusive to their website 

All the black in this picture is KVD Witches everlasting lipstick

Charlotte Tillbury Jewelgasm lipgloss (loved it!) one of those ph glosses
Tasted like fruit cocktail from a can 😆 
The most I’ve ever paid for a gloss!

M.A.C. crème de nude…ah concealer lips days! 

Charlotte Tillbury lip tint in Tinted Love 💕 so good!

ABH Cherry- love the shade but not the formula for color this vibrant it’s messy

ABH Rose- this shade is good formula is fine for this light color

So this is what I would purchase these days. City lips clear gloss, I always have a back up. Charlotte Tillbury lip stain and gloss is my favorite, very expensive but so different and luxurious without cruelty, and I appreciate that. Fenty gloss is a favorite. As for black lipstick I will only wear it in liquid matte form because I don’t want it to travel all over my face. I probably need to try a new brand as Coven doesn’t seem to sell void anymore. KVD isn't the same anymore, and lime crime isn’t no longer. I loved M.A.C. Lipstick but until it’s cruelty free I’m not purchasing it again. 

Here are some I’ll not repurchase 

M.A.C. Morange, didn’t look too bad 

KVD Echo? I think it was called was ok

M.A.C. Rebel…I don’t love this berry purple on my skin tone